too much money, too much everything

allright, this is really going to be brief.

I just want to explain myself - I have been going way too hard for too long. this is why I have in fact decided to not go to tonight's "Fitchin' Friday" (yes, it's Thursday, I know.) I talked with my mom, and we just talked about all the money I've been spending, how if I want to go home in November or save up for any portfolios, I have to stop socializing so much (drinking, clubbing, eating out) if I really want to progress... I have homework due, essays coming up, I am even missing class tomorrow just to visit Nam again... (that's a totally different story.)

yeah, and I got offered a contract with Sutherland Models yesterday. I have NOT decided on whether or not I'm going to sign with them... but it is an extremely exciting opportunity. and I am very thrilled, don't get me wrong, but I'm not jumping on that bandwagon THAT quickly... simply because it'll cost me up to $850, which is an awful lot to invest. apparantly I have "lots of potential," but we'll see! I still want to visit other agencies next week, namely Ford. (yes, I'm bringing out the big guns... Despite the fact Sutherland is effing ridonculously good.)

I am quite exhausted... and I need to better think where I am investing my money, my energy, my time. regardless of all the excitement, I am still a university student, and I want to finish my degree before I go off and do anything else. (though modelling could be a lucrative part-time and summer endeavour.)

ANYWAY! I'm done, I'm done. I'm either doing homework, or going to bed, to taking things easy and not spend money, because I physically cannot go out tonight. sorry, guys!

going places,
Joel